SELFISH

The poem is about the feeling of powerlessness you feel sometimes, when you want something so bad, but you realize you have no control over it. When what you wish is not exactly what reality is. It tends to become a sense of what your expectations are Vs what the reality is. I write all my work as recently as a few hours before i post, so for the most part, i never really have any idea what my poetry's topic or subject is gonna be until i draw from a source of internal and/or external inspiration. The subject of the poem, is actually my blog itself. *I'm gonna get a lil selfish here* but i want you to view my blog like it were your favorite book, that even though you have read all the poems, you would still want to come around and browse through it because of a certain emotion you felt just from reading it. haha.... it sounds overtly ambitious for a newbie to blogville, especially since this is literally my 2nd or 3rd week. lol. but sincerely, every comment i get makes me giddy, and every tag anyone leaves on the footnote makes me excited, so please continue to make this little boy in a grown mans body excited. 


p.s. the poem could also really be about a female too. :) cuz i have a perv mind. (we all do, im just the first to admit it)


p.s. 2.... im being both selfish and selfless. 


SELFISH
selfishly i long to become your guilty pleasure
blushing and giggling at the thoughts of me
let your mind roam and let it get lost in me
rush over to me
like i am an addiction you are unwilling to go a day without
itching for a fix of me
sweating profusely
licking your lips
twitching nervously from the anticipation of me
you break out into cold sweats every moment you can't have me
i need to engulf your whole being
from you heart
to your body and your thoughts
i would eventually possess your heart
all exorcism is failure
so resist me slowly at your own feeble will
i want you fully and selfishly
let your thoughts of me remind you
of your favorite place in your world
as my words strum across your heart like southern blues
crass, raw and hurtfully truthful
tell me you would be back
and say it like you mean it
because, every-time you leave for just a moment
i get the feeling, 
i am ceasing to EXIST :(