Unfaithful

Whao... so i know i dont make the best decisions considering my love life, but i think i just made a really good decision for myself. So incase you didnt know, over the past few weeks i have been carrying on an Affair with an Older woman. She was smart, cute, funny, cultural, mature but She was also married (i think the married part should have cancelled all those positive attributes). Anyways, i was content with the arrangement, she hit me up and hung out whenever she wanted to release stress, act young and not have any worries in the world and Her Hubby dealt with whatever stress and troubles that burdened her. What more could i ask for, the positives of a relationships without all the commitment and serious issues that relationships come with (yay).
This arrangement worked until recently when things did start getting serious. it all started with little nice gestures like her cooking for me and bring me some food every other day, i should have shut that shit down the first time she did it but, man can she cook and my greedy ass never declines good food. Anyways, it first started with food, then the next thing was her talking about a divorce from her hubby, that had my head spinning abit and i tried to talk to her about working somethings out with her hubby, yeah i know things arent great now (especially since she is cheating), but the test of a good relationship is working through your issues. Right?
Things got to a crescendo the other day. we just had sex and she said something i didnt even dream of hearing... she said "you dont know how much i love" she whispered it so slightly, So to say the lest, i was shocked and awed, and it wasn't what i bargained for....
i definitely have my own shit to deal with, and i wouldnt want to add the love of a married woman to my  plate.
i was pretty sure that we both knew that whatever pseudo relationship we were in had an Expiration date, the few times we talked about the future, we both had different stances, i want kids of my own and i hope to be married later down the line in the future, if She ever gets divorced she is going to be done with getting married and she sure doesnt want kids, because she has kids of her own already and she has closed the chapter for more kids... so there definitely was an expiration on us.
the matter was helped by the fact that she told me that her Husband was actually an Ex Army man from the taiwanese army Who was once in the detail of protection service for the president of taiwan, Basically, in his country, he has the license to kill and he probably has some Hardcore Ex Army Friends. WTF, do you believe she didnt tell me her husband was literally trained on how to kill, until like 2 weeks ago, then her silly ass asked me if i was scared or worried? Yeah silly B*tch, i should be scared that your hubby was trained professionally on how to kill people.

Anyways, with all the craziness that has unfolded over these past few Weeks, i had to have a serious talk with her.... i told her that we had to end the whole affair, that even if she was divorced we would still have a very visible expiration date. it literally wouldnt go anywhere and we need to take some time apart to concentrate on ourselves, maybe in the future we could become good friends WHO DONT HAVE SEX, but for know, that isnt going to be possible. i deleted her number and her emails and all personal information, i advised her to do the same.... It was hard for her to take in, but she understands im coming from a logical and good place. So she had only one request before we completely stopped our affair, she requested that we might as well have sex one last time.
i was very shocked of her request, But me being a Gentleman,,, i obliged the lady.

i might be going to hell for all this shit, but it wouldnt be today or anytime soon, plus God knows i give  money to charity.

I guess i did the right thing, being the adult and ending it...... it probably was the smart thing to do, considering that her hubby can and would kill me if he found it.

my Day with JoJo

if you have been following my blog for quite sometime now, you would recall that i have mentioned that i have a very adorable God Son. his name is Joseph, but its shortened to Joey or Jojo. He is 2 years and 2 months and he is already developing a personality of his own (mean little brat) but it is adorable. i dont get to see him as often as i want to because quite frankly school, work and extra curricular activities. So i was more than excited when i got done with my spring sememster last week, the first person i schedule time to see was Him (forget his parents, they are just a means to seeing my God Son)

i figured i take a few pictures of him while i was at it, oh boy, is he a handful. Everytime he sees me, he smiles and runs up to me for me to pick him up. that gets me soo excited (get your mind outta the gutter). Anyways, from the moment he saw me, he began scheming of ways to escape from indoors

 This is him scheming on how to run out of the door, See how he looks like he is interested, but he really is in deep thought on whether his plan to Run out the door would work.

Jojo makes his move, he is like "to hell with it, im out"

 he decides to show me that he got some game for a 2 year old, im like yeah whatever jojo. then he shoots

 and he actually makes it in.... with a sense of accomplishment, little jojo decides to strike a pose, because he is just #Bawse

 there goes his pose. way too much Personality for a 2 year old.... as things wounded down, i decided it was time to take his show off little self back inside, he didnt like that very much and he had to be such a Diva about it, he started Crying and Holaring when he got outside, pointing right outside motioning that he wants to go back out (i obviously wasnt going to let him show me out) so i told his mum to discipline him.

 And because im such an Awesome God Father, she kindly Obliged, see there she goes trying to make him keep quiet. haha..... i think im going to be such an Evil Dad.

 Obviously, his dad came to his rescue... pssshhhh. i think he needs some more tough love, but what do i know?

Before i left, i decided to take a Family portrait, as you can see Jojo aint interested anymore... but the little boy would get over it... Eventually. #evil,laugh.


im going to be seeing him tomorrow, hopefully we can sweep whatever misgivings and misunderstandings me and jojo had last week under the rug, at that age, kids have the memory of Goldfishes, Hopefully, he hardly remembers... lol.

Anyways, i figured i share something personal, because i "heart" my followers. its summer, so im going to be gearing up to take lots of pictures, im scouting places to take pics in NYC and things to do. As the summer progresses, i can only get better with my pictures.

i personally think he looks more like his mum, but when he was younger everyone used to rave about how much of his father he looked like, Well who do you think he favors, his mum or his dad?