Regrets

Hi, to  everyone new to my blog, this is a blog about love, life, love life, poetry and everything in between. im you average hopeless romantic, actually more like an old soul stuck in a young body. so i post as often as 2-3 times a week, on a subject topic and i usually have a piece of poetry following the post i make. i try to keep things fresh as possible and i am open to ideas on which you would want me to address. i have fears and worries and questions about love, just like everyone else so i am special but also like you. 


So, worries and Regrets, we all have them. we cant seem to avoid them. some people tend to have more regrets than others. others have a unique ability in being able to learn from their regrets and move forward from it. the thing most disappointing from regrets is the moment you start to think, "what if" what if i could have done things differently. would things still have occurred the way it did. the what if scenario is a scenario that is all too familiar with me. i am a person who is very critical and i could be hard on myself. yes i know worrying and fretting over my regrets would
not change a damn thing, but i still worry. Time makes it easy to let go of your regrets and it helps you put things in perspective, but before time passes, the thing most people have is themselves and regrets sitting in a little corner. 


i am  a realist, so i tend to see things from both sides, yes the cup is half full, but its also half empty. so as i soak in the good, i also soak in the bad. hey, i am only human. but whenever i start to worry, or when i start to worry that i might regret a choice i make, i think to myself "i would be more regretful if i don't make a firm decision and stand by it".
one universal thing i worry about mostly, "would i ever be successful?", the second thing i probably worry about too is, "would i die alone or with a loved one?", the major thing i would hate to regret would be, if i met the so called one, would i be stupid enough to let her slip away without ever getting a phone number, or even becoming fully committed? (i hope the sentence makes sense, lol)
So tell me bloggers, what do you ever regret or what makes you worrisome? no matter how small or big, i wanna know, pwetty pls :) 


so here is a little piece of work because i have Awesome followers


poem:
i am falling back into the same patterns
holding my reason on ransom
and making decisions without thinking
the guilt comes shortly after the bliss
the guilt i can stand but its the self hate that kills me
in the morning i promise to be better
but its the same lies i have told myself before
the first step is admitting i have issues
okay fine, i have issues
im rocking myself 
and counting backwards from ten to one
ten, nine, eight........
i have waited two seconds abit too long
and i still don't feel better
now my impatient heart
is skipping faster than it can beat
i need someone to stop me
before i strangle and hang myself
with the long trail of regrets 
i have hidden in my closet




p.s. ok, i know this is a dark poem, im gonna try and write something airy and pleasant for my next post, i kinda, sorta promise.... unless if you guys don't the dark side.