Emotional Rehab

So, it is sunday again and i can take a deep breath once again. All my fears have been shelved away in the past, and as the new week begins, i face new challenges and fears...(yay???not). So i was raised catholic, and last week wednesday was Ash wednesday and Ash wednesday is basically the beginning of lent. Lent just basically means, giving up something you cant do without for 40 days and 40 nights, a vice of yours. if you ask me, thats just a freaking cruel thing to do. if i couldn't do without Chocolate, then i have to give it up for 40 days, or if i couldn't do without Porn (for health reasons obviously) then i would have to give it up for 40 days and then die....lol. im not overtly religious, actually, im not in any sense religious, but i do still keep some traditions that reminds me of my childhood. So i am observing Lent this year. what i am giving up would be discussed some other day, but for now im talking Emotional rehab (did you like how i switched the topic so smooth like james bond? yes i am a dork, so deal with it lol)
what is Emotional Rehab right? well this is how i see it, to me, emotional rehab is
a state of mind you have/need to go to when you have all these jumbled emotions and they keep interfering with your daily actions. When you are so emotional pulled down that you whole being feels heavy, or when you feel like you are not exactly yourself. like your soul is suffering from a hang over from heavy feelings of love, despair, lust, liking and all the illogical emotions we humans have. You wake up, and because of the way you feel, you are not sure if you want to do something. 
you hear a song, and it transports you to a time and place that draws so much emotion from you, you see words to a poem and it draws you in like a spider web, you hear a name and feelings start rushing in, from your heart to your racing mind. when you feel weighed down like this, thats when you know you need to get away. mentally or physically. we all have our ways of checking into emotional rehab and we all have our vices which put us into emotional rehab. my emotional rehab is a state of being mentally and physically by myself. whenever i check into emotional rehab i tend to want to be alone, i have an "imaginary do not disturb" sign on my heart and mind. i get a bit withdrawn from the world and i seek a pause button that does not exist.
i am certain we all go through this form of emotional rehab and we tend to have different techniques of dealing with it, so i would love to hear how you guys deal with your emotional stress and what may cause you to even check into emotional Rehab.


as always, i would leave you with some poetry, just cause i think you all are awesome and you all deserve it. 


Poem:
Hi, my name is Benga
and i am an Addict
i am addicted to the pain within love
and with its insatiable high
i have been addicted for 20something odd years
and for as long as i can remember
i am a sucker for pretty smiles
and kissable lips
which belong to girls 
that are in love with themselves too much
to ever notice little ol' me
i love chasing this fools gold
with hopes that this last time is it;
there is a dark comfort i feel
in watching my heart break
as i keep falling face first in love
with girls who are emotionally unavailable
the cuts and blister on my hands
are from picking up the pieces to my broken heart
one shard at a time;
ok, truthfully, maybe i slit myself on purpose sometimes
to check for a faint pulse from my bruised heart
i have mastered the 5 stages of grief
like the plastic smiles i wear every morning
and each time i recycle through the 5 stages of grief
i linger a moment longer, 
on the 4th stage each and every time
i am truly an emotional wreck
just waiting to be saved from myself
so here i stand 
checking myself once more
forcibly into Emotional Rehab
so, Hi my name is Benga
and i am an addict.