I'M Back

Im back... i know its been a long while... Whats new? nothing really.... its just 6 months ago i closed my blog... i dated here and there, but nothing serious ever became of anything.... i Had to take a Leave of Absence of this Blog because? well because i had alot of things on my mind, that if i said on this blog, it would have probably gotten me in some hot water. Well all my hot water dating issues have been resolved for the most part, and now kinda in the clear from that person...

I may have been dating Aimlessly, and now i think i need to take some time of dating, and i should rediscover what it means to actually become a friend of a girl without expecting anything in return... the problem i have always had is that, i can hardly have an attractive friend that is a girl, without me want to act on my desire to screw her brains out (or at least attempt to screw her brains out and fail miserably while attempting).

basically, the jist is that im getting older, and i need to be able to form a meaningful relationship with the opposite sex, without the relationship being centered on SEX.

the past few people i dated, the dating was just me taking her out a few times just to have sex eventually... and me, myself realizing that the dates had no future other sex and an occasional text here and there.

both my two good friends are in good long term healthy relationships, and i kinda envy that...
for me to be able to put my mind in a frame of wanting to date for it to lead to a relationship, im going to need to take some time off dating entirely, and focus on self development.

i need to learn to have a healthy relationship with myself first.... learn to say No to the idea of sex just because im horny, i need to be able to view Sex as something that is meaningful and something that should be done because i care about the person.

Soo over the past few recent weeks i have been hanging out with girls that i have some sort of history with, and i have slowly been learning to keep my hands to myself... i wonder how long all this decency on my path would last...
Anyways, i guess what im saying is that this blog might become on which i begin to explore those mushy things in my body that they call feelings, and learn to ignore the horny side of me... i wish myself luck on this quest.

P.S.
i was recently involved with a girl who has a kid, her kid is about 2 years old.... anyways, we were fooling around, and i go in to suck and play with her nipples..... and surprise, she is still lactating from her previous pregnancy.....
that was the weirdest surprise i have gotten all year... i think it would have been nice if she had told me "hey Dude, im still lactating", a lil disclaimer would have been ok.
needless to say, i havent fooled around with her after that.

Anyways... Happy 4th of July to all my fellow Americans