Fuck Crushes

Yeah i said it, Fuck Crushes.... im soo done having a crush for no good reason. If falling in love and getting into a relationship is going to involve all these crazy mixed feelings, then im soo over it. i thought i wanted a relationship, but nahh... i think im happy being by myself. the thing with relationships is that, when you really want one soo bad, it would almost never happen.... and im not one to ever lose my Cool over another person, and im not about ready to start doing that.
im not going to have a nervous break down thinking about her, nor would i keep making my thoughts roam towards her, i need to stop checking my phone every fucking 5 seconds to check for a reply, to a text i just sent... im not going to google her and find pictures of her online from her facebook, im not going to constantly check in the mirror and groom myself just before i see her, im not going to become shy and socially awkward around her, that shit is sooo played out.
infact, i should just delete her number from my phone, so i dont send random messages that make it way too obvious that im constantly vying for her attention.
If Cupid Brings ITS FUCKING ARROWS next to ME, im going to SHOOT CUPID.

i dont know how people get into relationships anymore, and im not sure i want to find out... im happy with the Psuedo Empty relationships i have had, and i think im content with Empty sex and Minimal Vulnerability.

basically for tonight, all i can say is, Fuck Crushes.