Unfaithful

Whao... so i know i dont make the best decisions considering my love life, but i think i just made a really good decision for myself. So incase you didnt know, over the past few weeks i have been carrying on an Affair with an Older woman. She was smart, cute, funny, cultural, mature but She was also married (i think the married part should have cancelled all those positive attributes). Anyways, i was content with the arrangement, she hit me up and hung out whenever she wanted to release stress, act young and not have any worries in the world and Her Hubby dealt with whatever stress and troubles that burdened her. What more could i ask for, the positives of a relationships without all the commitment and serious issues that relationships come with (yay).
This arrangement worked until recently when things did start getting serious. it all started with little nice gestures like her cooking for me and bring me some food every other day, i should have shut that shit down the first time she did it but, man can she cook and my greedy ass never declines good food. Anyways, it first started with food, then the next thing was her talking about a divorce from her hubby, that had my head spinning abit and i tried to talk to her about working somethings out with her hubby, yeah i know things arent great now (especially since she is cheating), but the test of a good relationship is working through your issues. Right?
Things got to a crescendo the other day. we just had sex and she said something i didnt even dream of hearing... she said "you dont know how much i love" she whispered it so slightly, So to say the lest, i was shocked and awed, and it wasn't what i bargained for....
i definitely have my own shit to deal with, and i wouldnt want to add the love of a married woman to my  plate.
i was pretty sure that we both knew that whatever pseudo relationship we were in had an Expiration date, the few times we talked about the future, we both had different stances, i want kids of my own and i hope to be married later down the line in the future, if She ever gets divorced she is going to be done with getting married and she sure doesnt want kids, because she has kids of her own already and she has closed the chapter for more kids... so there definitely was an expiration on us.
the matter was helped by the fact that she told me that her Husband was actually an Ex Army man from the taiwanese army Who was once in the detail of protection service for the president of taiwan, Basically, in his country, he has the license to kill and he probably has some Hardcore Ex Army Friends. WTF, do you believe she didnt tell me her husband was literally trained on how to kill, until like 2 weeks ago, then her silly ass asked me if i was scared or worried? Yeah silly B*tch, i should be scared that your hubby was trained professionally on how to kill people.

Anyways, with all the craziness that has unfolded over these past few Weeks, i had to have a serious talk with her.... i told her that we had to end the whole affair, that even if she was divorced we would still have a very visible expiration date. it literally wouldnt go anywhere and we need to take some time apart to concentrate on ourselves, maybe in the future we could become good friends WHO DONT HAVE SEX, but for know, that isnt going to be possible. i deleted her number and her emails and all personal information, i advised her to do the same.... It was hard for her to take in, but she understands im coming from a logical and good place. So she had only one request before we completely stopped our affair, she requested that we might as well have sex one last time.
i was very shocked of her request, But me being a Gentleman,,, i obliged the lady.

i might be going to hell for all this shit, but it wouldnt be today or anytime soon, plus God knows i give  money to charity.

I guess i did the right thing, being the adult and ending it...... it probably was the smart thing to do, considering that her hubby can and would kill me if he found it.