Me and Poetry

hello.... i still owe yall a full post, blog and poetry, but i honestly have been soo busy these past few days, i havent even had time to catch up on new blog post on my blog roll list, i promise to make my blog rounds soon enough. 

and i know i havent replied comments, from my previous posts..... i really feel soo horrible about that. i am so appreciative of all my followers, and my repeat followers who come, time and time again to read my blog post and to leave comments. you guys make me want to pour my heart and soul out onto these blog pages. thank you all for the motivation, every new comment makes me smile, even the comments with criticism. i do have a few favorite commenters, but there is still room for many more favorite commenters in my heart. i have a big heart (i think i do).

Sooo, its december again, wow.... this year just flew bye, i remember when i was just making up my new years resolutions..... i guess the older i get, the faster time seems to fly. makes being young feel so nostalgic. what i would do to be 7 years old again, with no responsibilities and no worries. 

Next week Tuesday Dec 13th is actually my birthday, i have absolutely no plans.... i try not to make plans, actually its easier not to make any plans probably because im single and there is no one to try to make my birthday a big deal. im slowly getting the hang of being single for my birthday. 

it would be nice if i could get up to 50 followers by my birthday, im up to 46 now, i wonder how possible 4 more would be in less than a week. 

but just incase, maybe i shouldnt hold my breadth...... there is a saying that goes....." if you expect nothing, then you would never be disappointed".

i know i had 2 previous post without a poem or poetry posting.... sooo i hope this makes up for it. 

Poetry

She is all that consumes my mind

she is my mental gravity,

my thoughts all convene at the center of her being

haha, stupid fool.... you are just in deep infatuation

you always snap out of it once she is yours

she is only a new victim to your heart games

no, i promise this time is different

i see no future without her in it

i gasp for breadths at a time, everytime she kisses me

she is the one

and im building a new religion based on her being

you said those same things about the last girl

now your tongue has lost

the verbal vibrations it needs to call out her name

nor do you remember the names of the last 3 girls

this time is different, 

she is my true reflection

i dont even believe in soulmates

but i believe in her

if i ever doubted love

now im in doubt of my doubt

i hear him laughing at me again

as i realize im bound by my emotional straight jacket

as i argued illogically again with my hidden personality

he whispered to me

"how can you love her

when you haven't learnt to love yourself yet?"

Sooo... i hope my poetry lovers are happy about this work.... its abit raw and unpolished because it is basically a freestyle.... i didnt want to edit it, and i figured if i did polish it up, it would remove from the identity of the poetry.

Sooo feel free to leave a comment, tell me what you think about the concept i was trying to go for... or just tell me something Random. lol.