stupid silly emotions

hello blogville...... feels like its been ages, well it has been. i almost have forgotten how to post a new post up. haha. Truthfully, i had a bit of trouble signing into my blogger account, you see i have alot of passwords for every other account (i.e. email, school email, blackboard email, tax software, gaming software, hulu account, netflix account, insurance account) and in the mix of all these accounts i have, i forgot what password i put on this account. i usually log into many of these sites from my Personal Laptop and i give my laptop the option to store my passwords right, but if for some reason i ever get logged off, then i have to remember and search my brain for what the password i choose for a particular account is or might be. Anyways, im here. So, quick question, did you miss me? (i really hope so).
anyways, im back. i wrestled with the idea of closing my blog, because
things actually started getting in the way of me blogging, like real life started flying right fast at me, but almost all those things are being taken care of. i know i should do a follow up on "list of things that are my fav things part duex" but that would surely come some other time, preferably sooner rather than later. 
So, i just got off spring break and im finally glad that my internship has come to an end, so now im going to be having a lot of free time, so i can study, go to the gym and catch up on sleep. BTW, if you dont know me well, i love to sleep. if sleep was a female prostitute, i would pay for her by the hour, literally. 
this is a free form post, and im going to take a little getting used to typing short story forms and morals onto this forum so bare with me. i have been gone for awhile so pls show me some love. im ok and nothing tragic has happened to me. i was just swamped with hella work and i decided to lay low to recuperate. 


so, lets talk about silly emotions.... im guessing we all have them. if you dont think you do, then have you ever been in a position in which, you were talking to someone, its all friendly and innocent, then BAM, you start to think about them just cause. the remember all the funny things or conversations you had with this person. in the story books or fairy tales, this is alright because, boy meets girl, boy likes girl, girl likes boy and they all fall in love and they live happily ever after. But from my experience, things never happen the way you read about them in story books. well, atleast that is what i have noticed.  the reason i say its stupid emotions because, as you here the Thud of your heart fall for this person, you start to realise that on paper, you and this person you are falling for might never work or might never happen. 


examples of things that might be on the paper that would make "said person not work with you"
Long Distance
Not being on the same page with what you might be looking for 
Race
The person has a boyfriend/Girlfriend
Different Stages in life
i dunno, you could just add your own things to the list. im hoping you all know what i am talking about. 


so when you write a list of reasons not to like a person, you then try and convince your silly emotions that they are being stupid and they need to grow up. 


so im going to leave my post write here, and im leaving you with a quick poem. hope you like it,
and remember, go easy on me, its been ages. im almost like a virgin on this. :o 
p.s. i know my ideas are all over the place, but give me a break, its 5am in the morning and im blogging. i think i deserve a star or candy or something. seriously. 




POEM
She has stolen all my words from the depths of my heart
so now, every time i see her
im almost as speechless as the first time we met
so i fill in the uncomfortable silence
with feelings of my fragile emotions
interjected with awkward flirtatious comments
fumbling confusedly
as it hurriedly leaves my mouth in open confessions
stupid emotions attacking once again
as i whisper to myself loudly
"that, she is the only one i desperately want"
i painfully wrote down all the reasons why we would never be together 
my feelings are not making any sense
so for one last time
i cross examine my feelings
which are bounded tightly as i tortured them all night
stupid emotions
blindly getting the best of me yet again